Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Thoughts from 4:30 AM

It's funny the things that pop into you head and won't leave when you get up to go potty at 4:30 in the morning. Last night for some reason this song popped into my head.


My days are filled with laughter.
My heart has known Your Peace.
I've traveled far, still very far to go,
Cause in my heart there is a longing
to look upon your face.
Where you are, is where I want to be.

You are my King.
You are the lamb.
Lion of Judah, Seed of Abraham,
the Holy One, God's Only Son.
You are the King of who I am.

Every road I traveled down,
You have walked before me,
Made the Light to shine out in the darkness.
I am looking for the Day when I Bow before you, lay my crown at your feet.
Oh Jesus, you are my King. You are the Lamb.
You are the Lion of Judah, Seed of Abraham,
The Holy One, Gods first born [Only] Son.
You are the King of who I am.

by Lulu Roman-Smith & Russ Taff

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Eight years ago today!



Eight years ago today, we were married.
Happy Anniversary Eli!

I love you!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Words that have touched my heart

I have been listening to Kendall Payne a lot lately. I love her music. The words of her songs touch my heart. Here are some words from songs that have really spoken to me.

"You feel like burning embers
You feel like coming home
You feel like my forever
And that’s all I need to know

You feel like Christmas morning
You feel like summer rain
You feel like holy waters
That rinse away my stains

You feel like children singing
You feel like midnight calm
You feel like breathing deeply
Until the storm is gone "

~Burning Embers



"Don’t let your life slip through the cracks in your hand
If you hold on tight you might stand a chance

Don’t be yourself if you’re not someone you like
There’s hope for change in anyone’s life...

...Don’t dream out loud you never know who will hear
Delight in bringing you down and fill your head with their fears

On paper skin words won’t rescind they sink too deep and slice me open
In paper skin I never mend it bends me back until I’m broken"

~Paper Skin


"It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And every day I wish I was small
I've been counting on nothing
But he keeps giving me his word
And I am tired of hearing myself speak
Do you get weary? Do you ever get weak?
How do you dream when you can't fall asleep?"

~Scratch



"The moon's worn thin
Succumbed to the pressure
Her silver dress
Hangs in the sky like a rag
Her coat, her cloak
Her cover of darkness
It fails to hide
The tears that she's cried
Oh she cries
But she still shines"

~The Moon

The following songs are not songs Kendall has written but she released on an album. But these songs have also spoken to me.

"Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom"

~How Deep The Father's Love



"Lord make me an instrument of Your peace
Lord make me Your messenger, if You please.
Help me to bind the wounded,
Give me Your eyes for those in need...

Where there is hatred
We will show His love
Where there is injury
We will never judge
Where there is striving
We will speak His peace
To the people crying for release
We will be His instruments of peace...

Where there is blindness
We will pray for sight
Where there is darkness
We will shine His light
Where there is sadness
We will bear their grief
To the millions crying for release
We will be His instruments of peace"

~Instruments of Your Peace

Saturday, July 18, 2009

She's 5!

Today we let Ellie choose what we had for breakfast and she chose Cinnamon Toast Waffles and Bacon, Yummy! We gave her presents to her at breakfast.
She was so excited for today. Last night when I went to bed at 11:35 she was laying in bed eyes wide as could be and she looked at em and said "Tomorrow's my Birthday."
This morning we also let her try some Dew for breakfast, hey it's her birthday! I am not sure she liked it but she is trying.
One of her presents was a gumball machine. She was allowed to try a piece after she finished her breakfast, I don't think she liked it at all. But she keeps asking to try another piece. She has waited so long I think she is determined to like it no matter what. Here are some pics of this morning.





Tuesday, July 14, 2009

My So-Called Vacation

So I have been on vacation I guess. Since I haven't had to babysit Paul, since the Rittenour's went on vacation I guess this is kind of my vacation too.

We spent the first day, Wednesday, cleaning the house. It was needed and I figured if I got it all done on Wednesday then I could rest the remainder of the week.

Thursday the kids and I got up and headed to my parents house for what I thought was just one night for me. The plan was to take the kids spend the night and leave on Friday afternoon. On the way to my parents I found a yard sale at the top of their street so we stopped. I hit it hard it was a good yard sale. That afternoon I ran some errands to some local stores that are not so local to us. The kids had fun swimming in the pool that Nanny and Pop bought for the grandkids.
Friday I got up and headed out to a couple more yard sales. After I was done going to yard sales I got:
For Silas:
Gap Winter Coat
Buzz Lightyear Sweatshirt
Gap pants
Lucky Ducks Game
A big Buzz Lightyear and Woody dolls
For Ellie:
5 pr. Pants, Jenas, Athletic & dressy
Nightgown
2 long sleeve shirts
A Jacket
A scooter
For Lilly:
A couple sleepers
A swaddler thing for sleeping
Everything was in great condition! I think I did good.
After the yard sales we were sitting around the house and my dad walked over to get the neighbors paper and he was walking back up their driveway and noticed that my back tires on my van were not sitting correctly. To make a long story short it needed new tires and they thought it just needed and alignment but no the back axel was 3/4 of the way cracked though and was making the tires off. Could have broken at any moment while I was driving it. The part doesn't come in till tomorrow and then who knows how long it will take to fix it. That kind of put a damper on the vacation.
The rest of Friday was spent with family, swimming and eating pizza. Oh yeah and I made my mom watch Mamma Mia.
I had to spend the night Friday night cause I couldn't drive my van. I sadly missed the scrap booking event at RVCC, I was bummed!

So Saturday Eli got up and came and picked me up. Before heading out of town he took me to McHappy's so I could get a donut. What a man!!! Too bad I didn't get any Broughton's Chocolate milk while I was there, it's the best. Anyway, Eli came and got me and we headed home. That evening we headed to Ashland, KY to hear the MFE open up for Big Daddy Weave. For those of you that don't know the MFE is one of our Church Worship bands and they also do a lot of gig's outside of church. They are so good and they have a heart for Jesus and getting his message out. They do such a good job and leading those of us who are not musically inclined into musical worship. They are so good but I am biased. They did such a good job at the concert. They had people asking all of us how to book them. Oh I almost forgot we had MFE shirts on that were made just for the night. Before the concert we ate at Chick-Fil-A, yummy! Then we headed for some coffee at Starbucks. While at Starbucks a huge storm came in, crazy rain and all. While sitting in the concert we find out that there were tornado's in Ross and Pike Counties. So I became nervous. Thank the Lord we were not as effected as others. When we got home our skiritng was down and under the house. So we had to sit that up and a piece is missing. But thank you Jesus our house was ok and safe.

Sunday Eli spoke at church and did a great job! Then we had lunch with some great friends at Cardo's. The rest of the afternoon was filled with Lounging about. Then for youth we headed out to Pike Lake for the youth campout. Luke lead worship while Sarah painted and then Luke had a small devotion. It was really nice. We headed back to have a campfire with an evening activity followed by S'mores.

Monday, I took Eli to work so I could have the car. I headed to Kohl's and then over to The Salvation Army. At the Salvation Army kids clothing was all 75% off. I am currently trying to find some fall clothing because I am afraid after Lilly get here I am not going to be able to get some things for Ellie and Silas so I want to be prepared. I got 35 articles of clothing and 2 pairs of shoes for 18.99. Amazing! Everything was in really good shape, not stains or anything. I think the kids are almost set for fall and Winter. It was a great sale. The rest of the day I spent here and there in stores that I can't typically go with the kids, just for the heck of it. Mom and Dad brought the kids back Monday night and we enjoyed dinner together before they headed back home.

Today, I slept in, YIPEEE! Eli is at work so we are here for the day. I am going to finish the Laundry and the bathroom needs cleaned. Cleaning the bathroom is getting to be a hard job. And then I think I will spend the afternoon scrap booking since I missed the scrap booking event at RVCC Friday night.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Look what was in our yard today.





Silas would have been in Heaven, he loves Horses. I wish he could have been here for the excitement.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

We Are the World

What a sad day for the Jackson family. I know a lot of people think it's silly that he is being memorialized in such a manner. But think about it would it really be a memorial service for him if it wasn't a big production. Yes, he had his issues but don't we all have issues. His were more evident because of his status in our culture. We all try to hid any issues we have. WE put on a mask and pretend that we are ok. We lie about our life so no one thinks we are bad people. Can you imagine if your every move was made public. No wonder he was messed up. But we cannot over look all the good he did and tried to do.

I grew up listening to his music. I remember when the following song came out. It touched my heart when I was little and today. If we all would take those words to heart this would be a different place. "We are all part of God's great big family and the truth you know love is all we need." How true this line in the song is. WE ALL need love! No matter who we are, where we are from or what we have done, we all need love. Can you imagine if we stopped tearing each other down and started building each other up. Giving people a sense that they are someone special and they have a purpose. I could go on but won't.


We are the World

There comes a time
When we head a certain call
When the world must come together as one
There are people dying
And it's time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all

We can't go on
Pretneding day by day
That someone, somewhere will soon make a change
We are all a part of
God's great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Send them your heart
So they'll know that someone cares
And their lives will be stronger and free
As God has shown us by turning stone to bread
So we all must lend a helping hand

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

When you're down and out
There seems no hope at all
But if you just believe
There's no way we can fall
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change will only come
When we stand together as one

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Not that I worshipped the ground he walked on but he will be missed. A part of my childhood died.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Happy 4th of July

I hope everyone has a great evening celebrating the Independence of our country with your family and friends.

Here are some pics of some of our past 4th's in no certain order.






Thursday, July 2, 2009

Cure for the Pain

Thank you Jon Foreman. This is a great song and the words going thru my head as I laid down last night finally put me to sleep.


I'm not sure why it always goes downhill
Why broken cisterns never could stay filled
I've spent ten years singing gravity away
But the water keeps on falling from the sky

And here tonight while the stars are blacking out
With every hope and dream I've ever had in doubt
I've spent ten years trying to sing these doubts away
But the water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away

So blood is fire pulsing through our veins
We're either riders or fools behind the reigns
I've spent ten years trying to sing it all away
But the water keeps on falling from my tries


And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away
A lie to run, it would be a lie
It would be a lie to run away

It keeps on falling (x4)
Water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away
It would be a lie to run away
It would be a lie to run away

Beaches-An all time favorite Movie.

I wish I had the movie Beaches on DVD. I have had a song from that movie going through my head for a week now. I think I just need to watch the movie to make it stop running through my head although that may make it worse too.
I remember when the movie came out, I had the soundtrack on cassette tape. I would pop that cassette in and sing at the top of lungs when I was all alone of course. My favorite song on the soundtrack is "I Think It's Gonna Rain Today." I used to rewind that song over and over again. And to this day it is one of those songs that frequents my mind. It happens to be the one that has been trapped in my head for the past week.

For those of you who have never heard the song here are the lyrics. I have put my favorite part of the song in bold. It's the part that keeps lingering in my head.


Broken windows and empty hallways,
a pale dead moon in a sky streaked with grey.
Human kindness is overflowing,
and I think it's gonna rain today.

Scarecrows dressed in the latest styles,
the frozen smiles to chase love away.
Human kindness is overflowing,
and I think it's gonna rain today.

Lonely, lonely.
Tin can at my feet,
I think I'll kick it down the street.
That's the way to treat a friend.

Bright before me the signs implore me:
Help the needy and show them the way.
Human kindness is overflowing,
and I think it's gonna rain today.


Lonely, so lonely.
Tin can at my feet,
I think I'll kick it down the street.
That's the way to treat a friend.


Bright before me the signs implore me:
Help the needy and show them the way.
Human kindness is overflowing,
and I think it's gonna rain today.


I think I will look on iTunes and see if I can rent it to watch. It has been years since I have seen it.