Saturday, June 14, 2008

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

my world keeps on spinning

vertigo |ˈvərtəgō|
a sensation of whirling and loss of balance, associated particularly with looking down from a great height, or caused by disease affecting the inner ear or the vestibular nerve; giddiness.

this is what the dictionary says. i am not sure i get the giddiness, there is nothing giddy about this.
we all know that i am not a tall gal so this doesn't happen because i am looking down from heights.
my wonderful dr. says it's caused by the inner ear.
i hate this feeling. hopefully the medicine will start to kick in. i have had this feeling for 2 1/2 weeks now. i just hope it goes away before we get to Toronto.
sometimes i feel stupid or silly when it's really bad. people give me strange looks when i have to hold on the the wall or just stop moving. on the outside they see nothing wrong. let me tell you if you could feel what i feel you would know there is definitely something wrong.

if you care to please pray that this gets better.

so much to do so little time

we leave sunday morning at 5AM.

tomorrow we have to get the van serviced and checked out. i have to finished getting as much done at the mckells as i can. we are dropping the kids off with eli's parents at 2. then we are off to columbus to go to the airport to exchange money, finish getting last minute items, and take a friend to dinner for her birthday.

friday i have to rip movies make beds and finish up laundry at the mckells. we get the kids back from eli's mom and dad. at some point in the day we have to meet up with my dad so he can take the kids to their place for the week that we are gone. marty is dressing in drag for the ross county relay for life. that should be funny so we wouldlike to get a couple of shots of him. i think my dad may be spending the night so the kids won't actually leave till saturday. gotta pack their bags.

saturday will be full of last minute organizing and packing. we meet at the church at 7 to pack up the van. the thought ofthat made my stomache do a flip flop. then it's home to bed.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

a dream from my childhood is still in my heart

A blog I read ask a question of all of it's readers the other day.  What is one of your dreams?
When I came to the realization, I think I was 8,  that people actually lived on the streets and didn't have any food, clothing or shelter.  I wanted to open a homeless shelter.  Where people could come and live  until they could get back on their feet.  

Growing up I couldn't understand why we have all these condemned buildings and no one fixes them up and uses them.  We have a lot of wealthy people in the USA.  Why doesn't someone buy these buildings fix them up and then have poeple who need jobs run them.  And make the buildings a place where people can come to get back on their feet.

A place where they learn life skills if need be.  Where they can clean up for an interview, where they have an address so they can get a job. 

I was watching some YouTube videos today and there were several interviews with homeless people and they were ask why they didn't like to go to the shelter.  Their answers varied.  We just read the book Under the Overpass and in the book it talked about different shelters and missions.  They all had a service that the people had to sit through before they were fed or given a bed.  WHY?  Why can't we just love people.  Why to we try to shove Jesus down their throats.

One of the services described in the book we read the pastor was screaming , sweating and spitting.  For some this is what they need and this is how the gospel gets across.  But I don't think that would work for me.  Some people just need to be treated like another human and to be loved unconditionally without judgement.  Whether they are living the way we think they should or not. 

I want a shelter where homeless can come in and we just love them!  Where they can be treated like Human beings and we can sit down and have conversations with them.  I just want to love them.
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why did charlie have to die?

You are: Charlie Pace
You almost have two different personalities. You are a good person but have some issues you've been struggling with. You aren't one of the bravest people in the world but you defend what is closest to you. You are willing to fight for what you believe in, no matter the cost. You are also a smooth operator and your charm and honesty make people like you. You can be a bit cocky at times but definitely have the right to be. You feel the need to take care of people because of guilt from your past. Ultimately, you are a courageous soul and want to be everyone's friend.

Charlie was by far my favorite character on LOST. 
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