Friday, August 24, 2012

My best friend went to Kindergarten.

This summer has gone by so quickly. I can't believe my kids are back in school. I am thankful for daily routine that it brings. I need that daily routine to function properly.
I remember when Ellie started Kindergarten. I remember waddling her into her room to meet her teacher and tearing up at orientation. I took her to school on her first day and picked her up. I teared up a little but not a full on cry. Soon after Ellie started school we had a distraction from Ellie's new adventure. Lilly came and life was more about her than Ellie leaving the house and going to Kindergarten everyday.
It was Silas and I at home with a baby to take care of everyday. Okay we all know that I was the one doing the caring for but man did that boy love to help and he wanted to do everything he could for his baby sister. He would even sit and hold her hand while he watched cartoons. He wanted to help feed her, change her and bathe her. I didn't work outside the home at this time, like I did with Ellie. Instead I was babysitting. I think that aided in a different level of bonding for Silas and I.
Yesterday was Silas' first day of Kindergarten and he LOVED it! Eli took him to school because the little girl I am babysitting for gets here at 7:15. I tear up when they left, and teared up a couple times during the day. At about noon I wondered, Is there any way I can find out if he's ok. I went to pick him up and I teared up. Thank goodness for big dark sunglasses. I ask him if he had a good day and he said it was awesome. And then I ask the question that no mom should ever ask their child. Did you miss me? He responds no. That only hurt a little. I don't want him to miss me I want him to have fun and enjoy school to the fullest.
After making dinner, cleaning it up and getting everyone to bed I nestled in my bed to fold clothes while I watched some tv. There was nothing on which just left me and my thoughts folding clothes. NOT GOOD! So it finally dawned on me. At noon yesterday it wasn't Silas I need to be wondering about it was me. I was the one not doing good. My best friend went to Kindergarten and I was a little lost. I didn't have anyone to talk to. Sure Lilly and Isabella were here but those are not the same conversations I had with Si. I didn't have anyone to snuggle with. Lilly doesn't snuggle very often if at all. I didn't have a helper following me around trying to figure out how he could help me with everything I was doing. I didn't have anyone to have some down time with and play wii. I had myself a good little sob and continued to fold clothes.
So thus a new chapter in our lives has come. I hope his loves for school continues and I hope that Ellie develops a love for school this year. I, and she, need for her to have a great year.
I am sure I will start handling this better. I am sure that Lilly and I will develop a deeper relationship and then in 4 years I will be right back here where I am now.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Fall Motivates Me.

Fall is coming! I love fall, it motivates me. I have plans, big plans. I hope that I can stick with them and follow through with my plans.

1. couch to 5K
I want to run in the color run. I need to loose weight. My goal is to loose 70 lbs. I am going to try to get up at 5:30 and try to do this. I think that's when there were been the least amount of people out to see my feeble attempt.

2. Let my hair continue to grow.
After I loose weight and my face is somewhat thinner I want to get my hair cut. So until then I am going to let it grow and then when I cut it I will donate it.

3. Make my own applesauce

4. There are many delicious goodies that I want to make.

5. Bread bowls- I want to master making them.

6. A soup a week. One night every week we will have soup.

7. Bonfires! Lots of Bonfires.
I think we should make it a tradition that the first Friday night of the month is bonfire night at the Roogles Ranch. All is welcome. I love bonfires.

8. I want to master Bagels.
I want to learn how to make all different varieties of them.

9. I have many sewing projects that I want to get finished.

10. I want to paint the metal cabinet in my kitchen.
I have a chair at my parents house that my mom and dad said I could have. I would like to get it as well for the kitchen.

11. Make Cheesecakes
Laura Milmore has agreed to get together and help me figure this one out. I hear she makes an amazing cheesecake. I have a recipe for a pumpkin cheesecake with a Ginger snap crust.

12. Spend more time with Jesus!
I need it.

13. LOVE
Love all with all I've got. It's not as easy as it sounds, our human nature gets in the way. But I am going to try.

I have lots that I want to do. And there are many more things that I haven't listed, I guess these are the most important to me. I hope that I can get motivated and keep it. It would be nice to have someone to accomplish some of this with but I think I am on my own. Wish me luck.

As I read back over this it looks like I am going to have to do an awful lot of exercising to loose the weight I want to loose. After doing the couch to 5K in the mornings I'll have to use my wii fit in the afternoon and then maybe we can take family walks or bike rides in the evenings. I hope I can do it.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Starting over

God gives us second chances right?? So today because of a simple pin on Pinterest we discussed second changes and started over.

For the next three weeks the kids and I are going to discuss obedience. We are going to pick a verse to go over every day and I have a Bible story for everyday. There is a section to help you create your own prayer about being obedient. The pin on Pinterest had different activities to do to reinforce obedience.

I really am hoping that this works.

So to start I talked about how God gives us second chances and we ge to start over when we mess up. I told them that just as God does that with us I am going to give them a second chance. They were given 45 minutes to put everything in it's place and start the UH OH! tub over again. I am hoping by starting over fresh new and with a empty tub that this will help.

I am going to keep the UH OH! tub but I wanted to start the next three weeks with the tub empty and new. I hope that as we discuss the stories and do the activities that they will see the importance of doing what mommy and daddy say and doing what God says.

The thing I like about this stuff I found is that it also has a parents section where you can create a prayer for you and your kids. It's a prayer for you to pray. So the kids aren't doing this on their own you have your part outside of guiding them through the activities as well.

If this works the website I found has other activities and such on different character traits. I think we will continue to do these. It can't hurt, right??