Friday, August 28, 2009

Ain't about how fast I get there

I'm not a fan but the words to this song are really good.

"I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll Never Reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking."

excerpt from The Climb by Miley Cyrus

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Quotes by Ellie & first day of school update.

Ellie said "we had to raise our hands when we had a question and I had a million questions."

Ellie said "at lunch i sat by a blue shirted guy and white shirted girl and a black shirted guy, good thing I wore stripes."

It seems that she had a good day.

I hope she was well behaved, listened and cleaned up her area.

It's here the official 1st day of Kindergarten

Wow, I can't believe it's here!

I didn't talk about it much yesterday because I didn't want Ellie to get anxiety and not be able to get to sleep. We went to bed at 8:10 and by 8:15 she was out, no worries there. Now for me it was another story. I went to bed and laid there for a little over 2 hours eyes wide open with anxiety for my little girl.

So 6:15 this morning came way to soon. We got up, got ready had breakfast and we were off. It was a foggy morning.

We had a great drive to school and traffic wasn't that bad. Here a couple of pics we took once we got there.

I dunno why she decided to put her bottom lip in her mouth. I think maybe she was a little nervous.

I gave Ellie a hug and told her that I was leaving and reassured her that she was going to have a great day full of fun.
I left and walked quickly to the car thinking the whole time, I can make it to the car before I break down. Then as I was pulling out there was Julie Evans. The tears were held back a little longer. I try so hard not to cry in front of anyone. I made it till I got home. Eli left for work and I kind of lost it a little and am even tearing up now. But I know she will have a great day and she will be ok. Someone will help her open her lunch and be there for her if she can't get her pants buttoned after using the bathroom.
I am really proud of her she was a big girl this morning. I think when we arrived she got nervous but she stood strong and I think maybe tried to be like mommy and not cry in front of her teacher or classmates.
This is a good thing and everything is going to be great.
I love my little tiger!

Friday, August 14, 2009

It's official!

I guess this is as official as it gets.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Shew, it's really time!

The blog here made me think about the things to come too soon!
Here in a couple of weeks I am about to send my first to Kindergarten. I was doing great until here lately. When I think about it I just tear up now. I think when the day comes I will be a mess. I worry about her being out there alone without me. Going to the bathroom and eating lunch without me. I worry about what will happen when she goes to the bathroom for the first time by herself. I always go into the public bathrooms with her. Will she be able to open everything I put in her lunch and if not will she ask for help or just not eat. Will she make friends? She seems to know no strangers when we go out in public but we are always with her. When we aren't there will she talk to the other kids. Some days I try to blame it on the pregnancy hormones, baby #3 comes on Sept. 8th. But I really don't think that's it. My little girl is leaving the nest and isn't going to be with me for 8 hours of the day. That's 8 hours I don't have control of. Please Jesus keep her safe and let her remember all the things I have tried to teach her. Please let her be loving and compassionate to all kids and teachers. Let her show Jesus in her 5 yr. old way.

But of all of the family I think that Silas is going to have the hardest time with Ellie leaving him to go to Kindergarten. I think that he will feel lost without her.