blah

so here i sit very, very tired. but eli's gone so i probably won't sleep until monday night. i feel blah, paranoid, worried and stressed. that seems to be a continual state. why do i worry about what people think of me, why am i so paranoid about offending anyone, why do i stress over every little detail in life, i dunno. and some of you may say don't stress, don't worry, just give it to god. it's not that easy sorry. i have always stressed and worried. i have never been able to get past it. i can pray all day and night and give it to god a million times but it's still there. if someone doesn't like me does it really matter? if someone isn't willing to come to me when they have a problem with me are they really worth worrying about? if i don't know i can't fix it. i just spend my days with heartburn, headaches and stomach aches because i worry. sorry i am sitting here alone and my worrys tend to run away with me when i am alone and have nothing to do.

mixed feelings but it was amazing!

let me just say that even though somethings happened tonight that could have made the evening bomb they didn't and kids had fun anyways. the amazing race was this evening and i think that all the teams had fun. i stayed at the church to manage the base station. i think the highlight of my night was when trish came driving through the grass into the church parking lot and up the hill to the bottom door so her team would be closer to the finish line. go trish! i also hear that seeing gannon being repremanded by the park ranger at pike lake was quite entertaining. or dalton puking after drinking a gallon of water. i can't wait to see pictures that were taken. we had some kids show up that typically dont' come to things and they had a good time so it was well worth it. i just hope that things go better next year. thanks to all the adults who came and helped, we love you! and thanks to the kids who came and participated in the event. and big ups go to sarah for being yelled at for something she didn't do.

curious

if money were no object what are the top five things you would immediatly do?


my answers:
1. get out of all debt
2. buy a home in Waverly
3. buy a brand new 4 door burgendy jeep
4. buy a nice camera
5. go on my own mission trip with a few close friends to the inner city, chicago or
San Fran, and love homeless people.

tersie's hill

oh tersie did you see your hill tonight. it was amazing. i kid you not at exactly 5 pm a rainbow appeared in chillicothe. an amazing rainbow! it was very wide and you could see every color well. you could see both ends and it just towered over chillicothe. ii have never seen anything like it i could see the whole thing and you could see where both ends hit the ground. it was so beautiful. one of the ends was on tersie's hill. you could see it in front of the trees on the hill. it was so beautiful. i wish you all could have experienced it. well it faded but not even 30 minutes later there was another one in the exact same location only it was a double rainbow. wow, one rainbow was very vibrant and the other was dull. it was still the second most beautiful rainbow i have seen. the first being the one 30 minutes before. i wish i had the talent of jaki or erica that i could have caught better shots of it. i just cannot express how beautiful they both were. i hope you saw the rainbow tersie. i drove by your office to see if you were still there and you had left. i hope you were able to see it.

rhinestone cowboys???

check this out: find out what song was number 1 the year you were born

the song for my birthday is "rhinestone cowboy" by glen campbell.

it's my kind of day

i like days like today. fall is my favortie season and i love fall days that are overcast. i don't so much like the rain, just because it makes things with the kids a lil more difficult. i don't really know why i like overcast days better but i do. and i think the leaves look spectacular with an overcast sky.

gotta love crowder

this is by far my favorite song on crowder's new album remedy. when you read the lyrics really pay attention to what you are reading.


Oh the Glory of it All
David Crowder Band

At the start
he was there, he was there
In the end,
he’ll be there, he’ll be there

And After all our hands have wrought
He forgives

Oh the Glory of it all is:
he came here
For the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all
for the glory of it all

All is lost
find him there, find him there
After night
Dawn is there, Dawn is there

After all falls apart
he repairs he repairs

Oh the Glory of it all is:
he came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all

oh he is here
for redemption from the fall
that we may live
for the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all
the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all

After night
comes the light
dawn is here
dawn is here
it’s a new day
it’s a new day
everything will change
things will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same

Oh, The glory of it all is
you came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all

Oh you are here
with redemption for us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all
for the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all

there is also a youtube video of crowder singing this song. but i could not get it to work on my blog. so go check it out.

here we go

i can't believe november is coming so quickly. we have so many things going on from now till christmas. it all starts this weekend with the amazing race. i am so excited for this event it should be so much fun. then we have halloween. ellie is going to be jojo and silas is going to be goliath. i think ellie will have a lot of fun trick or treating this year. then after trick or treat eli leaves for st. louis. he has to work the national youth workers convention there. hmmm me and the kids alone for 5 days, what will we do. The 7th we get to see crowder at bogarts in cinnci. that should be fun, i love his new album. we have some turbo training coming up at the church and then eli and i leave for atlanta. we are going to the national youth workers convention child free. ellie and silas are going to stay at my parents, i am sure they will come back spoiled. but that's what grandparents are for. this will be the first time that we have been away from silas for more than 20 hours. i am excited for this year's nywc, last year i was 8 1/2 months pregnant and just could not enjoy things. i was too tired and uncomfortable to enjoy the benefits of the weekend. so hopefully my focus can be where is needs to be time to refresh with no kids. find time for me, for my marriage and to learn more about working with youth. it should be a great weekend. then comes thanksgiving. i have no idea what we are going to do for thanksgiving. i guess we will see what happens. we will only be home for 4 days and then off to the fall retreat with the youth. again no kids so i can focus on the youth and the relationships we have with them. i am very excited about the fall retreat i think it will be a great time. there are some gals that i really hope will come but we will see. i am also excited to get to the point in the fall retreat when we tell the kids where we are going on mission trip. yipee! i am very excited. and then comes december with bang. we are going to see rob bell on the 1st. i have never seen him before and i am really excited to have the opportunity. i don't know what to expect and am not sure i want to have something to expect. and i realize as i type this thrown into the mix somewhere i am sure ellie will be practicing for a christmas musical. oh and then there is all the other every day things. wow, what a month it will be. i just hope that the time away from eli will be refreshing and the time away with him will be more refreshing. that the time away for my kids will be refreshing. i will miss them but it will be good for them to spend time with nanny and pop, they don't get to see them that often. well i hope that through the wild month we can refresh and renew and get some rest for ourselves.

I actually like this song

Your Karaoke Theme Song is "Margaritaville"

You are a true party animal, but your style is mild and chill. Kicking back with a few friends and a few drinks is all you need to be happy. You certainly don't feel pressured to be a part of any party scene. In fact, you avoid trendier spots. You've been known to kick loose anywhere and everywhere. All you need is a cooler. You might also sing: "Gin and Juice," "Love Shack," and "Red Red Wine" Stay away from people who sing: "Wind Beneath My Wings"

What's Your Karaoke Theme Song?

wow

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

The It's Its There Their They're Quiz

yeah well

You Are 37% Peaceful

You aren't a very peaceful person, and you are at odds with almost everyone. Relax! No one is out to get you. Let other people make their mistakes. Their idiocy is not your burden.

How Peaceful Are You?

I get it from my dad

Your Driving Is is: 67% Male, 33% Female

According to studies, you generally drive like a typical male. You're confident in your driving skills, and hardly any situation gets the better of you. And while you may have a few tickets under your belt, you're still a very good driver.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

by the way I have no tickets under my belt.

i like halloween

i think halloween is fun. decorating pumpkins, dressing up, trick or treating, fun parties. i know some people believe it is the devils day but isn't really what you make it out to be. for me halloween was always the fun dressing up, eating candy, bobbing for apples, ect... it wasn't till much later in life that i learned that people really use halloween to do bad things. hopefully can remain innocent and just have fun on halloween and enjoy the activites that i did.

an ellie first

this is the first time ellie has ever been in a potatoe sack race.
ellie decided she was ready to go to school, i am not. so we compromised and on tuesday and thursdays we have school. well yesterday we took our first field trip. we went to a pumpkin party. ellie had a lot of fun.

This is Hillarious

Check this out, I laughed so hard I cried. This isn't just for the ladies, guys. You need to watch this too, you will laugh.

Toby Mac

eli and i along with the other youth leaders took the youth to see toby mac sunday in grove city. i enjoyed it a lot. barlow girl opened for toby mac, i thought they were a little loud. you couldn't really understand them on most of their songs. toby mac was awesome. eli hates toby mac with the exception of the song irene. so he and steve went and had coffee during the concert. mason was making fun of me because i was singing along with toby mac. oh well to each his own i like toby mac. he preformed jesus freak and in the light. oh how i miss dc talk. they were a great band.
so after the concert i was taking chloe to find a band aid. chloe and elizabeth were right against the stage so in all the jumping some stepped on chloe's foot and bused her blister. anyways, i suddenly hear someone screaming (oh i can't believe i am about to say this) jenny rodgers, jenny rodgers, over and over. (i don't like the name jenny for my self) so i turn around hmmm this guy comes walking up to me and starts talking like we are long lost best friends. hmmmm i didn't recognize him! there is one person that it may have been that i used to go to church with but i don't think the bone structure in his face was the same. i dunno he obviously knew and remembered me. how weird!
anywho, it was a great concert! i was a little disappointed that toby mac didn't climb up and do flips off the speakers like i have seen him do before. oh well.
but i think the best part of the evening was the ride home. we had some great conversations in the van. i drove and i have jenny taylor, sarah cornish, baily deiner, chloe nickel, and elizabeth ryan. i am so glad that those gals were in my vehicle and we had a chance to connect and get to know one another better. we really had a chance to discuss some interesting topics and we got a glimpse of one another's heart. thanks girls for being open and willing to share yourselves with me. i had fun. we must talk again. maybe we need to take another drive and go shopping or another concert, you guys decide i'll drive.

why can't we love without judging

is being a good Samaritan also about stopping for those who hide there cuts and hurts? or is it just about helping those who are openly hurting and in need.

people wear masks, we all do. some of us put on a mask depending on where we go or what we are doing. maybe we are not fully aware of our masks but we all have them. i have masks, i don't want everyone to see my hurt. i had a lot of masks in college. i wore the good girl mask when i went home. when i went out with my sorority sisters i wore the party girl mask, and when i went to bible study i wore the i love Jesus mask.

why are we so hard on people who put on masks and act one way somewhere but when they get around certain people they act another way. As someone who used to wear masks and still does to some extent do or did i really believe that no one could see or does see through the mask. and do people really believe no one can tell when they have a mask on?? and whether we wear masks or others do, does it really matter??

shouldn't we love one another even if we don't condone their actions?

some people, including myself, get in their mind that they know how someone should act or react to a situation. and when we react differently people get all upset because our reaction or actions don't fit their beliefs, morals, or plan for us. can't we just live our own lives and lovingly convey to someone when we are concerned for them instead of kicking them in the heart??

MAYBE WE JUDGE OTHERS SO THAT WE CAN DEFLECT THE ATTENTION AWAY FROM OURSELVES SO THAT OUR UGLINESS AND HURTS CAN STILL BE HIDDEN.

now i am not saying that it is okay for our fellow Christians to do what they please. we don't have to condone their actions just love them and accept them not their actions.

if i mess up and don't react or act as you think i should please still love me. and please love your neighbor to spite their mishaps.





(sorry the first sentance didn't make sense. I had 5 minutes to blog before we left to see Toby Mac)

it's anna's fault

so last night we are sitting around watching the office, talking, and each one of us on our macs. i wish someone had been there to take a pic, ellie was already in bed. anna pipes up and says "why don't you include silas in your blog title?" "i feel sorry for him everytime i see your blog." guess i had just never thought about the title of my blog. so i just said i could put silas' milk bar, everyone laughed. eli thought it was great. so there it is atleast for another month. then i guess it will have to be changed again. if it offends, i would say sorry but i say i am sorry for everything even when it's not my fault, oh well it's the truth.

9 months and 3 years

they are so beautiful! i know i am partial cause i am the mamma but just look at them. don't get me wrong i know there are other beautiful kids too. i know sometimes i get frustrated but i do love them bunches. i think my frustration comes from not knowing what to do for silas. ellie was so very different. she didn't complain about a thing. she rarely cried about anything, from getting teeth to falling down stairs. silas on the other hand cries and screams all the time. from running out of food at dinner to me walking out of the room. wow how different they are, how wonderful they are. ellie is so nurturing and loving. silas is so cuddly and on the go. ellie loves babies and using her imagination. silas loves cars and trains. ellie crawled at 9 months and silas crawled at 5 months. i found ellie's first tooth when she was 9 1/2 months. silas very loudly announced the coming of his first tooth at 7 months. ellie is just a neck and a head taller than silas. ellie weighs 30.5 lbs. and silas weighs 19 lbs. at 9 months ellie weighed 14 lbs. wow how different and yet how wonderful. it's funny how quickly silas is catching her in size. ellie started sleeping through the night at 3 weeks. silas on the other hand is still not sleeping through the night. i will give him credit though he sleep till 5:20 this morning, yeah!!!!!!!! yesterday silas had his top two teeth break through. that was not fun!!!!! it's amazing how differently God has made them, how wonderful!